Saturday, June 9, 2007

Heart vs Spirit

It amazes me how messages of affirmation keeps popping up, dropping into my lap. Before I'm starting to sound a little bit daft, let me explain.

During the days following my post about praying, the daily quotes I received via email, all seemed to be about praying, and not losing hope or faith. This is one example from a quote by Frederick Buechner: "Faith is not being sure where you’re going, but going anyway. A journey without maps." It wasn't the only quote or article that came my way during the days that followed. They kept appearing, as if they were strengthening each other's message, building it up into an even stronger voice. And I was listening in wonder.

I believe that if you open yourself up to experience life, you will attract to your soul the answers that you are seeking.

The past few days I've been motivating myself towards thinking less about where I come from, the fight with Inferzilla, the scars it left, and more about where I'm going to. And as it happened so frequently in the past, a positive affirmation arrived through my inbox:

"When the heart grieves over what it has lost, the spirit rejoices over what it has left." Sufi epigram

I know there will be days in future when the painfull longing in my heart weighs heavier than the growing light in my soul. But I will be patient with myself on those days. I'm waking up and the sun is shining.

My spirit is winning slowly but surely.


pluto said...

< I believe that if you open
yourself up to experience life, you will attract to your soul the answers that you are seeking.

That seems to be so true from my experience as well -- and I'm really glad it's happening for you.

Omega Mum said...

Very moving. I am going to come back and read it properly, but I really admire you. Sometimes, keeping going is the toughest thing. To do it with grace is a rare quality.

KarenO said...

Pluto, thanks :) It's high time huh?

Omega mum: I'm practising hard to do it gracefully! Some days I feel like throwing a tantrum, and then I catch myself and try to act ladylike. It doesn't always work so well... :)

I Beatrice said...

I'm commenting on an earlier post of yours KarenO - the one in which you said your friends and family didn't know about your blog. That was my own situation precisely! I had been scribbling away in perfect isolation for all my children's lives. I think they thought it a harmless enough little hobby - but to be humoured and ignored rather than actually read! My husband was even worse..

But now suddenly, I'm blogging-it, and they're all reading me! I was appalled at first - and have been genuinely astonished to find that not only do they approve what I'm doing, but actually seem to be enjoying it!

So what I say to you is, hide from no-one. No harm can come of it, and there might actually be some wonderfully unexpected good!

Thank you for your kind remarks on mine by the way. They are very much appreciated; it's people like you who help bolster self-belief when it's flagging. Please let me know whenever I can do something similar for you.

FunkyMunky said...

One night, several years ago now, I really believed my life was over! I'd hit rock bottom and honestly didn't think things would ever get any better, but they did!

I've heard it said that God only gives each of us as much pain as we can physically stand, and I take comfort from that.

Your words are both moving and uplifting. I wish you the very best of luck in everything you do in the future.

Snuffleupagus said...

You know, I identify in many ways with the things you say. I'm not sure if Pluto is right. Life isn't always fair. But you can always find something to live for, to believe in, to smile about. I think the secret is in noticing the little things that make you feel good everyday. And if the bigger stuff never happens, that's ok.

The Sassy Traveler said...

I am so glad to hear that you are feeling a bit better... that you seem to be on a new road. I have no doubt your spirit will win. Bravo.

Bea said...

First - I love the quote you have chosen. The spirit does pause to appreciate what is left in some of our dark moments.

Also wanted to say thanks for your comment on my post - it was an intimate one, and I'm glad at the responses it's drawn.


Pamela Jeanne said...

Thanks for sharing this quote and your thoughts. Together with the comments from your readers, it gave me some added strength, and I needed it.

Jackal said...

'I believe that if you open yourself up to experience life, you will attract to your soul the answers that you are seeking.'

Profound and inspirational.