Thursday, July 26, 2007

Dear Victoria

We need to have a serious talk.

It’s great that you’re doing so well, and that you’re so super-positive. And it’s great that on the days when you’re feeling on top of the world you want to share it with everyone out there in the hope that it might inspire them too.

One of my not-so-new-year’s resolutions was to be more lovable towards myself, even the parts of me that I don’t feel all that comfortable with. So I’ve made a conscious decision to love you too, you’re after all part of me! (FYI: that decision was made long before you pitched up uninvited – so don’t think for even a minute that there was money involved anywhere!)

But goodness me woman, you’re making my life difficult and sometimes downright miserable. How on earth do you think I’m going to be able to live up to the expectations you’ve set? You’re a very tough act to follow!

Just remember, I’m human, and I’m just me. I’m NOT going to be all smiles and giggles everyday now that you’ve moved in. The fact that we’re living in the same body does not mean that I’m not going to have any more duvet&video-days to help make me feel better, OK? And you’re NOT going to stop me when I feel like having a whole slab of dark chocolate and 3 glasses of red wine!

So let’s agree on this: I won’t kick you in the shins when I can’t find enough love in my heart to feel nice about what you have to say and you don’t have to listen to me whine on those days when I just don’t have the energy to be so positive and strong as you are. Deal?



furrow said...

Some people thought I was a little weird when I wrote in third person, but I liked it. Took the pressure off. This is even better. I'm glad you've decided to let each woman be who she is.

Irish Girl said...

I love this post. It is so effective at illustrating the internal debate it seems I'm constantly fighting to win ... with positive thinking.

Sarah said...

a very sane and reasonable conversation to be having with your two selves,

Lori said...

Thanks for showing that I'm not the only one who has issues with integrating all my selves.

Even the perky one.

Artblog said...

Fabulous post. I haven't got that far in talking to myself that way. I usually take it out on someone else :(

Maybe your way is better :)