Thursday, October 18, 2007

Holding my breath again!

I'm somewhat at a loss for words at the moment. My mom had an appointment with her new oncologist this afternoon, and I just got off the phone after speaking to my parents.

The oncologist ordered special tests to compare the breast cancer from 10 years ago to the new cancer that was removed from her lung in February this year. He wants to make sure that this new occurrence is breast cancer. According to him, the breast cancer 10 years ago was so small and so insignificant, that it wasn't supposed to recur.

He said that this might be totally unrelated to the breast cancer, that it might be related to ovarian cancer (even though there is no sign of it) and that it might not be cancer after all.

Did you read that? My mom might not have cancer. "Might" is the word we use to express possibility, so lets get this straight: There is a small possibility my mom might not have cancer after all. Can you believe that? God is amazing!

I'm realistic enough to know that the "might" could also go the other way. But you know what else? Doc S (oncologist - the newest angel in the fold) said he wants the results first, but he suspects that there wouldn't be any need for more chemo. If it turns out to be cancer, hormone therapy would be enough. No more chemo, and certainly no radiation.

I'm holding my breath; scared that if I exhale I'd get too excited and forget that we have to wait for the results. But I'm also praying harder than ever. God knows what He is doing, and whatever the results, He is holding us in His hand. Three business days stands between us and the results. Never before have I wished a weekend away, but this time I'd give it up in a second! So Wednesday here we come.

Talking about results. The Familial Cancer Clinic phoned and made an appointment with us for next week Tuesday. They have the results. We will get them on the 23rd. I'll talk more about that tomorrow, maybe Saturday. Seeing that I said I'm going to be blogging less, it looks like I've got more stuff to write about than I thought I'd have! And I'm SO behind on visiting your blogs *blush* - watch out for me over the weekend girlfriends!

I cannot publish this post without thanking you all again. Your caring thoughts, comments and emails feels like a warm, comforting blanket around me - thanks SO much for being there!

12 comments:

Fertilize Me said...

OH MY WORD...i would hold out on the hope for that "might" word .,.still praying

Lori said...

This glimmer of hope is such a beautiful sight!

Schatzi said...

Now the results you are getting on Tuesday... is that the breast cancer testing you had done?? I have been wondering when you would hear. All sorts of positive vibes and prayers coming 'cross the pond for both you and for your mother.

Summer said...

I hope both you and your mom get good news!

Geohde said...

I hope that you get only good news.....

xx

J

Bea said...

Wow, big week for results. Can't imagine the tenterhooks you're all on. Keeping my fingers crossed for the best case scenarios all round.

And don't worry about the blogs!

Bea

Pamela Jeanne said...

Wouldn't that be beyond wonderful? So hoping that you'll get the good news you all want so much to hear!

Caro said...

Holding my breath too and crossing my fingers.

Waiting Amy said...

Certainly no one is more deserving of good news with all you have been through. Hoping ...

Kami said...

I am holding my breath with you and thinking about you and your family.

Mands said...

Wow Karen! Miracles do still happen! Hoping for the best news for your mom at her next appointment.

Furrow said...

Huh? This is crazy. But a good crazy. I do so hope that there's no cancer. So what made her so sick recently? The treatment?