Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Back to square one?

I honestly thought I was OK with being infertile, and everything that it entails. So OK that I stopped blogging. Carrying on writing about it felt like scratching the scab off a healing wound every time.

I'm not OK.

The past year a lot of things happened in my life that made me stop and think. How on earth I'm I going to deal with this vacuum in my life? I really, REALLY thought I had it pinned. It helped to write about it in the past, so I'll start again.

I missed blogging. I missed the contact and feedback from people in the same situation. No promises about lots of blogging or interesting writing - I'm just going to take each day as it comes. If you happen to discover I've started blogging again: "Hello my friend, good to see you again! I hope life has been treating you well since we last talked..."


loribeth said...

Well, hello, my friend! I still have your blog in my reader & was surprised & very happy to see a new post pop up today!

I'm sorry you're not feeling OK, but I think some ups & downs are totally normal. If you're writing, I'll be reading/listening. (((hugs)))

Karen said...

I'm sorry you're not okay - but I'm happy to see you back in the blogosphere. I hope you are able to use this outlet to help work through some of your feelings and maybe get to where you need to be.

My blogs have changed, FYI (email me for the password for protected posts, if you want it):
http://chezperky.wordpress.com and http://notaclowncar.wordpress.com

Amy said...

Hello friend! Your blog was also still in my reader!

I'm sorry you're feeling down...sending you ((HUGS))

icsi said...

I'm glad you're back, but I am not glad you are hurting. I've missed your words your posts and your insights.Maybe by coming back you can find some support understanding and company by those of us who care about you.

Leah said...

Hello, my friend. Sorry you are sad, but glad you are back. (hug)

Caro said...

Hello again, sorry you are not doing well but the joy of reader is that I saw your post.

Summer said...

I added you to my reader, hoping that I'd hear from you again.

I'm sorry things are not well with you right now. I hope that will change soon.

Anonymous said...

Oh babes, I must say I have missed you.

We're listening if you want to moan, go ahead...


Geohde said...

Hello and long time, no blog.

I've often wondered how you are.

Good to read you again,



Bea said...

Hi there. Good to "see" you again.

Not back to square one, though. You were bound to pass through other low points - I've never seen anyone heal in a straight line. I hope the ziggety line veers upwards again before too long, though.


Trish said...

Big hugs for you..

I was actually reading an old post you'd commented on and wondered how you were. Perhaps fate lead me to check up on you..